Monday, July 11, 2016

Kick in the stomach

Hearing other peoples pregnancy announcements are alwas a wonderful thing, but you cant help but feel that pang in your stomach too.  I recently found out a co-worker was pregnant.  Wasnt planned, just happened and I felt like I was kicked in the stomach.  Of course I'm absolutely delighted for her, but the "why cant it be me" rang through my head.  My manager knows I'm going IVF and I could see her looking at me out of the corner of my eye, and that just made me feel worse.  It's like she pitied me.  And I dont want to be pitied.

Its just so hard.  Then we found out her due date, and I wont have even had my transfer by the time her baby is born.  It's just such a tough tough process sometimes

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